[Locked to Brando, Des, and (grudgingly) Luke]

[worseforfears]

I can't do this.

I'm scared out of my fucking mind and I just... I don't know what to do.

Brando, I'm really sorry, but I can't stay.  I'll keep my journal, but I just...

I'm scared, okay?  Things are going... I don't know.  Wrong, maybe.  Or not wrong, but...

I shouldn't be feeling this.  It's too risky and I promised I never would.  So I'm gone, alright?

Don't worry about me - I'll be fine.  As fine as I ever am, anyway.

Comments

[calicoway.livejournal.com]

No, darlin'. Don't leave.

You can't. Not right now. Scary arse demon out there, remember? More demons comin in every day.

Is it cause of me? I'll just stay here in my flat and do what... I do. And I can report like this to Brando, but don't go.

[worseforfears.livejournal.com]

It's not you. Not really.

I just made a stupid mistake and I've got to get away from it. That's all.

I have to.

[calicoway.livejournal.com]

Look. You go out there and I'll be forced to find you.

[worseforfears.livejournal.com]

Don't. Okay? Just don't. I'm gone, it's done, I have a place to crash.

Goodbye.

[calicoway.livejournal.com]

And when'd I ever listen to you?

It's not safe, darlin'.

'sides what am I supposed to do there with you gone?

[worseforfears.livejournal.com]

You'll make new friends. You're good at that.

[calicoway.livejournal.com]

But new friends aren't you.

[worseforfears.livejournal.com]

that's why I can't stay. I'm so sorry, Luke, I am.

[calicoway.livejournal.com]

so no hint about where you are? The city's a big place. Going to take me a while, but that's never stopped me.

[worseforfears.livejournal.com]

Stop it. Please.

[nothingsodivine.livejournal.com]

Oh come on, Becks. Don't I get a say in this? I figured what with Mathias here now, we could hit a bar, knock back a few, and have a few laughs.

...Which, of course, is probably why you're leaving. Is it that "I'm getting too close to people for my own good" thing again? Because, believe me, running away like that tends to make what you're running from want to chase you down again.

[Private to Des]

[worseforfears.livejournal.com]

.........I didn't know it was that obvious.

But I just can't, Des. I really can't. I let my guard down and I let myself get attached and I can't, because... it's not like just living and living and they die while you don't. It's the thought that WHAT IF I HAVE TO BE THERE? What if I have to see it and be there and...

I just can't do that. I can't. It's better if I don't get attached and I stay away from anyone I care about even a little.

[priguemau.livejournal.com]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aMzgVshG6CI

[gausmanjeruv.livejournal.com]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aMzgVshG6CI